I stood in the rain... Waiting patiently for the time to come.
And at last.. You showed up... But in a masked face.
I reached out to you. To touch your mind.
I just wanna share that agony you might be feeling.
But you slapped that hand away from yourself, and continue to manipulate me.

I thought to myself...
"Did I do the right thing?"
"Whats wrong with me?"
"You... prefer someone else?"
"What Happen?"
"Maybe I should try to be myself.."
"Should I be straight-forward?"
"Seems that its getting worse..."
"I wished I had not attempted that..."

I'm losing hope and faith.

I just wished you'll open up.
Sadly, that hasn't happened yet.
I just realized you were looking from another perspective.
You didn't realize that yet.
You've probably lost that feeling.
I'm still clinging onto it.
Am I really being treated like a fool? Like Child's play?
Probably. Just that I can't bring myself to it until the truth is placed right in-front of my face.
As we all know... The Truth hurts.
I still hunger for it.


So...
Heres my last sentence for you.
The ambers are here for you to re-kindle.
Its about time they get lit-up, extinguished with cold icy water, or slowly die off as time goes by.
In another words, that feeling I have for you is expiring.


" ill Et Elle... Un Amour, Un Coeur, Amour Eternal "
"He and She... One love, One heart, Everlasting love"

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Tuesday, 19th January 2010


After a long day in school...
As I was heading back home to prepare for a tuition...
I board a bus, sat next to the exit entrance.
A group of Paya Lebar Methodist girls, board the bus, stood beside me.

And the most unusual thing occurred to me:


Girl No.1 : You know Angeline?
Girl No.2 : Yeah?
Girl No.1 : Shes so cute right?!
Girl No.2 : Exactly!
Girl No.1 : I think I like her
Girl No.2 : Really arh?
Girl No.1 : Can don't tell anyone? *Smiles*
Girl No.2 : Sure Sure! Hehehe
(I nearly laughed)
Girl No.1 : Shes so pretty... Unlike Jenny, so ugly.
Girl No.2 : (Hahahaha) Ya lor
Girl No.1 : I think shes straight... Maybe not... err
Girl No.2 : Just tell her that you like her lor

Another guy, 16 or 17 years old, widened his eyes when he heard that.

Then.. I wonder to myself ...
"Girls in all-Girls schools are more prone to be lesbians?? Its a miracle Boys in all-Boys schools are less prone to be Gays."

Another thing...
It seems normal when girls hold each other's hand and say "I Love you" to each other. A quick peck seems fine, but not a long kiss.

But, its the exact opposite for boys.
When Boys hold hands... Yuck.
When a boy says "I Love you" to another boy, It became unpleasant to hear.
When a boy kisses another boy, its plain gay.

When Girls talk about Gays, they will giggle and laugh as if it was the best joke of the century.
I mean, come on, its not even the least funny.

When Boys talk about Lesbians, they either sigh or stop talking about them entirely.

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At the moment.... Planning lots of courses for the Scouts :D
Although being a Public Relations Officer is a hectic job,
Its still really fun, enjoyable and interesting.
(I can collect the badges, re-stock badge box and get the badges for myself first :P)
And to plan badge courses, which I find, really meaningful and fun.

I have to give credits to my sirs and all who helped me :D

We had an SCC meeting today (to plan for other scout meetings).
Theres only 4 of us, but we did way better than the SCC meeting on Monday :D
Much easier to plan when you aren't being watched by your seniors. The ideas simply flow from our head.
Gonna work hard for Chief Commissioner's Award... And to study even harder too, of course.